I really need to learn how to let go.
blah.
12 (effectively 11) days more. so I guess I'll be forced to stop then I think.
but right now well today was like the first time this week I got home while it was still light lol.
been staying in school until like 9.30/8/7/8.30/6 this entire week. doing what I also dunno.
but maybe it's cos I'm like going in so soon hence this is like my last gasp of productivity lol. like how we all work best with some deadline fast approaching or whatever.
so yeah have been spending like 4-5 hours every day on chem eww.
well fine maybe less if you consider all the time I spend eating / walking around the canteen / walking over to RI to talk to people. but still considerable. and since my desk (or rather my laptop) faces out to the aisle where all the teachers walk it's very hard for me to slack. or rather I feel guilty if I'm slacking.
blah.
if only I were this hardworking last year.
oh well.
anyways hmm monday evening was spent training sec4s for geog. they're a decent bunch I guess. and much less irritating than the previous batch. but hmm I wonder how they'll do for prelims tomorrow. and actually I was intending to go down and watch them but I think I'm way too sleep-deprived right now and I really can't be bothered to drag myself down to NUS at 730 tomorrow. and really not much point in going down anyway since well I won't get to follow them through the geoad/geotrail phase of the thing I guess.
tuesday I can't remember why I stayed back in school. or what I did. oh dear. but I know I did get my hair cut on my way home. cos it was getting long. but then again it's going to be all gone in 12 days so it doesn't really matter. lol. I have no idea.
wednesday went home kinda early-ish after CCA (why I go I also have no idea).
thursday stayed in school to prepare slides for TM sessions next week. but since the school was too cheap to give us tablets and google image search isn't very useful and since I don't have a soft copy of shriver I ended up having to abscond with shu's after she was done with her lessons instead. hence me having to stay back very late to finish the slides / diagrams. but at least fun stuff happened in the staffroom then so yeah it wasn't that bad.
friday (i.e. today) managed to leave school at 6 after finishing chemO training at 530ish. but then again I wasn't even doing training I kinda got hongen to take over for me. oops.
and I should really stop eating staffroom biscuits for dinner 3 nights out of 5.
but then again I'm too lazy to walk to j8 to get dinner and the train's too crowded and expensive anyway. hmm.
but yeah I need to schedule a whole bunch of farewell dinners next week so I guess I should be eating better then lol.
and strangely enough it doesn't feel like I have 11 more days - seems much shorter than that. maybe cos those 11 days are packed enough already as is. blah.
ah well we'll see how things go then. now just left to wrap everything up and finish whatever I need to do before I go in.
like maybe scholarship apps oops.
24 February 2012
11 February 2012
#430
I'm typing this post from a very crowded serangoon library. and it's really a dismal place. ugh.
anyway how'd I end up here hmm - went to school way too early in the morning to train sec4s for geog competitions. but then they were all late so we only kinda started at 8.40 or so. then that took the whole morning so finished at 12+. but then again we spent a lot of time slacking around and talking so there.
but then again this batch seems somewhat nicer than the previous one. lol. anyway after that since in the end none of them were going for lunch I went back into the staffroom and intended to work on chem before going to serangoon to watch tinker tailor this evening with bessie/stacey/yinan/brenda.
but then it seemed that the entire RJ network was down so I couldn't even get online and whatnot. so in the end I gave up and went to nex early to book tickets (since the seats seemed to be running out already and we'd already shifted the meeting from orchard since lido was almost fully booked already).
and it's also quite ridiculous that only shaw released tinker tailor and only in 2 cinemas at that.
oh and I was hungry.
anyway thus went down to serangoon and walked around the place. then eventually settled on lunch. and finished it in 10 minutes. so decided to go to the library and stone for the next 3 hours. and therefore here I am.
and I'm kinda bored of my book so I'm like blogging now. zzz.
and nex is really a hellhole on weekends / on any day really since the design is frankly just terrible. ugh.
and it's too bloody crowded as well.
okay enough ranting.
hmm so anyway I just realised I have about 3 more weeks before I go into tekong.
damn.
been spending most of my time these few weeks in school - training j2s for IChO selection. and really I'm getting paid too little for it lor. since they're paying me 65/day for a 5.5h workday but then I'm always in school at 730 and usually leave only at 5. hmm.
but then again it's not like I spend most of my time actually doing work since the staffroom is way too cold and I get way too bored and always end up walking around the canteen instead. or walking over to RI to talk to shu / wenyun / OWL (who're all teaching geog there hmm).
but then I still do spend a considerable / disproportionate amount of time on prep. since I make my own slides / problem sets / answer keys. and I have to type all the formulae and whatnot with mathtype since I don't have anything better. and mathtype is a pain to use. which is why most of the time I end up writing out the answers and then just zapping for them.
so I've used about an entire tree's worth of paper just trying out problems and solving them (or failing to solve them) and my desk right now is a total mess. lol.
but at least now they're doing organic so I can get hongen to do most of the work for me. while I slack.
although I do have another series of sessions on TM in week 9 which probably means I ought to be re-reading shriver / cotton instead of stuff like random fiction I find in the library (like what I'm intending to do after this assuming I don't get bored of it hmm). but there's still time I guess.
and we're having a test on take 5! since that's like the only time we can get all 10 of the j2s together for a 2hr stretch. lol.
and did you know take5's in school this year? but then it's not like I actually did anything when it was at sentosa apart from sit in some marginally cooler spot and try not to melt and like wait until we were dismissed. hmm.
and they (council) put ridiculous NE stuff on the back of the take5 shirts this year. and they changed the colour of the 'play' on the front to red. ew.
and they're bringing in the SAF / SCDF / SPF to put stuff up in school as well. urgh.
and speaking of council hmm did some orientation crashing this year but I thought it was quite bleh. and not very well-planned either. as expected. for example final night was just fail since the AV kinda messed up at the front bit so no one heard what storyline was saying. then as per tradition there's the orientation-name-at-the-front-of-the-parade-square-set-on-fire thing. but this year they wanted llc to only light one of the letters and then get *councillors* to light the others. so anyway theme this year was istoria so they asked llc to light the I. but no she decided to go to the middle and light the R instead. so the emcees were very confused. so everyone watched the R almost burn out before council realised what was going on and continued getting the rest of the people to light their respective letters. maybe they were reallocating the letters I have no idea.
and then institution anthem apparently council gave someone on the parade square a mic to sing along and since it was cordless there was a lag between the singing and the actual music and therefore it sounded very very bad. and laicheng looked very pissed off. and unite was damn soft as usual.
and after final night the council teachers (all of whom had to stay back in school for the whole of final night, poor things) went around chasing all the OGs out of school. but then they let the OGLs stay as long as they wanted. i.e. like past 10pm. and it's not like they were cleaning up or anything but just staying in the canteen talking / making noise / doing stupid council stuff. which meant that you'd have a bunch of OGs waiting 2hrs+ at places like j8 while their OGLs take their time to get there. tsk.
yeah so that was orientation from my point of view. so sue me.
and this year's j1s are ... - like some of them are already mugging for SATs. and they always get up to the parade square like before the first (7.40) bell rings ._. so they get to watch all the staff (i.e. me as well how interesting) take their time getting on until the 2nd bell (7.45) sounds for the actual start of assembly. zzz. and back in my time we'd just stay in the canteen way past the first bell lol.
crap I feel damn old now.
and walking around nex so reminded me of last year when we were all going for the rallies and whatnot during GE season.
and can't believe that was only in like what may it seemed how long ago.
and now almost everyone in class who hasn't fled the country is in tekong already. but some of those who've fled are coming back! zzz. so right now facebook and msn are total wastelands and my contact list is just empty. and I'm so freaking bored.
but then again I'm like going into tekong in 3 weeks as well. shit.
yeah anyway back to the point well so much has changed this year already. and I miss school. even though I still go back every weekday (and sometimes on weekends as well ahem). but it's not the same going back in very irritating long-sleeved shirts and pants and horrible black shoes that aren't very good for walking (considering how much walking I do and how fast I usually walk) and with a tag on your belt that lets you into all sorts of interesting places. hmm.
and apparently some teacher complained to wty that I let the staff lounge door slam in her face instead of holding it open for her.
oh dear.
ah well very soon I'm going to disappear as well.
and back to my book now I guess.
edit: and I hope the internet's working again on monday else I'm so not going to get any work done. I think it's cos RI just set up a whole new intranet called Sophia and Stamford (with an m not n lol. and yeah I'm not kidding those really are the names) - like you can see the posters all over school if you look hard enough - and yeah maybe they kicked me/hongen off the network. since we don't even have email accounts or access to anything. zzz.
but then again it's not like it's a very good idea to give me access to sharing. so there.
anyway how'd I end up here hmm - went to school way too early in the morning to train sec4s for geog competitions. but then they were all late so we only kinda started at 8.40 or so. then that took the whole morning so finished at 12+. but then again we spent a lot of time slacking around and talking so there.
but then again this batch seems somewhat nicer than the previous one. lol. anyway after that since in the end none of them were going for lunch I went back into the staffroom and intended to work on chem before going to serangoon to watch tinker tailor this evening with bessie/stacey/yinan/brenda.
but then it seemed that the entire RJ network was down so I couldn't even get online and whatnot. so in the end I gave up and went to nex early to book tickets (since the seats seemed to be running out already and we'd already shifted the meeting from orchard since lido was almost fully booked already).
and it's also quite ridiculous that only shaw released tinker tailor and only in 2 cinemas at that.
oh and I was hungry.
anyway thus went down to serangoon and walked around the place. then eventually settled on lunch. and finished it in 10 minutes. so decided to go to the library and stone for the next 3 hours. and therefore here I am.
and I'm kinda bored of my book so I'm like blogging now. zzz.
and nex is really a hellhole on weekends / on any day really since the design is frankly just terrible. ugh.
and it's too bloody crowded as well.
okay enough ranting.
hmm so anyway I just realised I have about 3 more weeks before I go into tekong.
damn.
been spending most of my time these few weeks in school - training j2s for IChO selection. and really I'm getting paid too little for it lor. since they're paying me 65/day for a 5.5h workday but then I'm always in school at 730 and usually leave only at 5. hmm.
but then again it's not like I spend most of my time actually doing work since the staffroom is way too cold and I get way too bored and always end up walking around the canteen instead. or walking over to RI to talk to shu / wenyun / OWL (who're all teaching geog there hmm).
but then I still do spend a considerable / disproportionate amount of time on prep. since I make my own slides / problem sets / answer keys. and I have to type all the formulae and whatnot with mathtype since I don't have anything better. and mathtype is a pain to use. which is why most of the time I end up writing out the answers and then just zapping for them.
so I've used about an entire tree's worth of paper just trying out problems and solving them (or failing to solve them) and my desk right now is a total mess. lol.
but at least now they're doing organic so I can get hongen to do most of the work for me. while I slack.
although I do have another series of sessions on TM in week 9 which probably means I ought to be re-reading shriver / cotton instead of stuff like random fiction I find in the library (like what I'm intending to do after this assuming I don't get bored of it hmm). but there's still time I guess.
and we're having a test on take 5! since that's like the only time we can get all 10 of the j2s together for a 2hr stretch. lol.
and did you know take5's in school this year? but then it's not like I actually did anything when it was at sentosa apart from sit in some marginally cooler spot and try not to melt and like wait until we were dismissed. hmm.
and they (council) put ridiculous NE stuff on the back of the take5 shirts this year. and they changed the colour of the 'play' on the front to red. ew.
and they're bringing in the SAF / SCDF / SPF to put stuff up in school as well. urgh.
and speaking of council hmm did some orientation crashing this year but I thought it was quite bleh. and not very well-planned either. as expected. for example final night was just fail since the AV kinda messed up at the front bit so no one heard what storyline was saying. then as per tradition there's the orientation-name-at-the-front-of-the-parade-square-set-on-fire thing. but this year they wanted llc to only light one of the letters and then get *councillors* to light the others. so anyway theme this year was istoria so they asked llc to light the I. but no she decided to go to the middle and light the R instead. so the emcees were very confused. so everyone watched the R almost burn out before council realised what was going on and continued getting the rest of the people to light their respective letters. maybe they were reallocating the letters I have no idea.
and then institution anthem apparently council gave someone on the parade square a mic to sing along and since it was cordless there was a lag between the singing and the actual music and therefore it sounded very very bad. and laicheng looked very pissed off. and unite was damn soft as usual.
and after final night the council teachers (all of whom had to stay back in school for the whole of final night, poor things) went around chasing all the OGs out of school. but then they let the OGLs stay as long as they wanted. i.e. like past 10pm. and it's not like they were cleaning up or anything but just staying in the canteen talking / making noise / doing stupid council stuff. which meant that you'd have a bunch of OGs waiting 2hrs+ at places like j8 while their OGLs take their time to get there. tsk.
yeah so that was orientation from my point of view. so sue me.
and this year's j1s are ... - like some of them are already mugging for SATs. and they always get up to the parade square like before the first (7.40) bell rings ._. so they get to watch all the staff (i.e. me as well how interesting) take their time getting on until the 2nd bell (7.45) sounds for the actual start of assembly. zzz. and back in my time we'd just stay in the canteen way past the first bell lol.
crap I feel damn old now.
and walking around nex so reminded me of last year when we were all going for the rallies and whatnot during GE season.
and can't believe that was only in like what may it seemed how long ago.
and now almost everyone in class who hasn't fled the country is in tekong already. but some of those who've fled are coming back! zzz. so right now facebook and msn are total wastelands and my contact list is just empty. and I'm so freaking bored.
but then again I'm like going into tekong in 3 weeks as well. shit.
yeah anyway back to the point well so much has changed this year already. and I miss school. even though I still go back every weekday (and sometimes on weekends as well ahem). but it's not the same going back in very irritating long-sleeved shirts and pants and horrible black shoes that aren't very good for walking (considering how much walking I do and how fast I usually walk) and with a tag on your belt that lets you into all sorts of interesting places. hmm.
and apparently some teacher complained to wty that I let the staff lounge door slam in her face instead of holding it open for her.
oh dear.
ah well very soon I'm going to disappear as well.
and back to my book now I guess.
edit: and I hope the internet's working again on monday else I'm so not going to get any work done. I think it's cos RI just set up a whole new intranet called Sophia and Stamford (with an m not n lol. and yeah I'm not kidding those really are the names) - like you can see the posters all over school if you look hard enough - and yeah maybe they kicked me/hongen off the network. since we don't even have email accounts or access to anything. zzz.
but then again it's not like it's a very good idea to give me access to sharing. so there.
5 February 2012
fourtwentynine
ok I'm blogging again!
maybe cos I'm really bored. since msn is like effectively a wasteland right now. and fb is being flooded with photos of orientation. ew.
anyway hmm I've been reading my old posts again. and I realised some of them are actually very emo. ugh.
but interesting I also found this:
THINGS TO DO AFTER GEOPOL / CHEM O ENDS [in order of the likelihood that I'll actually do them]
- watch return of the king
- rearrange urban package (to get rid of the useless readings)
- FILE all my notes (since my bag is asploding again. and I think I need a separate file for h3 and h2 chem)
- do something about my physical geog notes (which somehow got bound when OWL was zapping them)
- SLA spatial challenge!
- read atmo, weather and climate (good book but damn dry so I keep getting bored of it plus I don't even have any time)
- read urban geog book (ditto)
- play a lot more bridge
- start thinking about uni apps
- scholarship apps?
- read the (short) list of fiction that I've put on my phone to remind myself to borrow (eventually)
- write proper human geog notes
and surprisingly enough the only thing I've done in this list is SLA.
oh fine actually I did filing as well but that was only this year i.e. long after it would have been useful.
oh dear.
well maybe cos I ended up getting distracted by things like IChO. and then prelims. and then As. and then uni apps which were / are a total disaster. zzz.
and the list of fiction is actually still lying on my phone but I still haven't gotten around to reading anything on it. sigh.
anyway yay it's 2012 already. and I only have 30 days before I disappear off the face of this earth (i.e. into tekong). crap. so really like right now I can't actually be bothered to do much since well after all nothing much is going to matter anymore for the next two years. sigh.
also the whole 2012 thing hasn't really hit. maybe cos I haven't had much reason to write the date at all. so I think sometimes I'm still writing 2011 even though it's already february.
so well last year actually was quite crazy. like at the start with geopol at NUS every friday (can't believe that was less than a year ago - now it seems like an entirely different time altogether) and stuff like skipping GP every friday and going down together with the entire geopol gang to NUS and then dinner at vivo every friday as well after that lol. and then there was still IChO trainings at NUS every wednesday as well! so my term 1 was really quite horrible back then.
then term 2 geopol finally ended and after IChO selection (which I thought I messed up) well I spent most of that time slacking / recovering. and then came the results of the selection and then off to more chem already. and so much mugging/slacking and even after that I still hate organic and can't do it either.
so after that one well term 3 and turkey. which was really fun. but pity I didn't enjoy myself that much since I spent too much time worrying about the thing / not having mugged enough (and I definitely didn't). and in the end it all turned out not to matter and we all got screwed over by pract. lol. so in retrospect I really should have tried to enjoy myself more. and now I'm regretting things already. oh dear.
then back from turkey and well off to prelims. which were like the first exams I took in the year. lol. and along came uni apps and way too much time spent in block H level 1M. and then As which really seemed so no different from prelims hmm. and I've kinda forgotten what happened then already.
argh my memory is going.
so that was very briefly 2011.
and I was so intending to write more about it but then 1 I'm sleepy and 2 this post should have been written a month ago so I've like kinda forgotten most of what I was intending to say already.
ok I feel sleepy. shall maybe update again some other time when I'm bored again.
which should be quite soon considering how little there is to do right now. zzz.
maybe cos I'm really bored. since msn is like effectively a wasteland right now. and fb is being flooded with photos of orientation. ew.
anyway hmm I've been reading my old posts again. and I realised some of them are actually very emo. ugh.
but interesting I also found this:
THINGS TO DO AFTER GEOPOL / CHEM O ENDS [in order of the likelihood that I'll actually do them]
- watch return of the king
- rearrange urban package (to get rid of the useless readings)
- FILE all my notes (since my bag is asploding again. and I think I need a separate file for h3 and h2 chem)
- do something about my physical geog notes (which somehow got bound when OWL was zapping them)
- SLA spatial challenge!
- read atmo, weather and climate (good book but damn dry so I keep getting bored of it plus I don't even have any time)
- read urban geog book (ditto)
- play a lot more bridge
- start thinking about uni apps
- scholarship apps?
- read the (short) list of fiction that I've put on my phone to remind myself to borrow (eventually)
- write proper human geog notes
and surprisingly enough the only thing I've done in this list is SLA.
oh fine actually I did filing as well but that was only this year i.e. long after it would have been useful.
oh dear.
well maybe cos I ended up getting distracted by things like IChO. and then prelims. and then As. and then uni apps which were / are a total disaster. zzz.
and the list of fiction is actually still lying on my phone but I still haven't gotten around to reading anything on it. sigh.
anyway yay it's 2012 already. and I only have 30 days before I disappear off the face of this earth (i.e. into tekong). crap. so really like right now I can't actually be bothered to do much since well after all nothing much is going to matter anymore for the next two years. sigh.
also the whole 2012 thing hasn't really hit. maybe cos I haven't had much reason to write the date at all. so I think sometimes I'm still writing 2011 even though it's already february.
so well last year actually was quite crazy. like at the start with geopol at NUS every friday (can't believe that was less than a year ago - now it seems like an entirely different time altogether) and stuff like skipping GP every friday and going down together with the entire geopol gang to NUS and then dinner at vivo every friday as well after that lol. and then there was still IChO trainings at NUS every wednesday as well! so my term 1 was really quite horrible back then.
then term 2 geopol finally ended and after IChO selection (which I thought I messed up) well I spent most of that time slacking / recovering. and then came the results of the selection and then off to more chem already. and so much mugging/slacking and even after that I still hate organic and can't do it either.
so after that one well term 3 and turkey. which was really fun. but pity I didn't enjoy myself that much since I spent too much time worrying about the thing / not having mugged enough (and I definitely didn't). and in the end it all turned out not to matter and we all got screwed over by pract. lol. so in retrospect I really should have tried to enjoy myself more. and now I'm regretting things already. oh dear.
then back from turkey and well off to prelims. which were like the first exams I took in the year. lol. and along came uni apps and way too much time spent in block H level 1M. and then As which really seemed so no different from prelims hmm. and I've kinda forgotten what happened then already.
argh my memory is going.
so that was very briefly 2011.
and I was so intending to write more about it but then 1 I'm sleepy and 2 this post should have been written a month ago so I've like kinda forgotten most of what I was intending to say already.
ok I feel sleepy. shall maybe update again some other time when I'm bored again.
which should be quite soon considering how little there is to do right now. zzz.
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