spent I think the last 4 days slacking after my job ran out.
lol.
don't exactly have any idea what I'm going to write here since really the only reason why I'm typing is cos 1 I don't feel like sleeping right now 2 I've run out of things to do already and 3 haven't posted in more than a week.
spent the past few days on stuff like 9gag / cracked.com / nytimes.com and other online stuff. reading.
need to get a few good books to read I guess. and actually get down to reading them. and use my 2-year-old kino voucher.
but thing is well when I read what I tend to do is skim. which can cause me to miss entire sentences / paragraphs (seriously). which is bad.
and I have no appreciation for lit or good writing or whatever you call it. so I mainly read stuff with interesting plots .-.
which frustrates some people to no end.
I'm shallow like that ok?
so anyway kevin sim has been trying to get me to read stuff like dickens and I'm like ew no way. although I might try sth like jane austen / one of the brontës if I'm really that bored. lol. but probably won't get much out of it.
anyway finished fellowship and two towers in 4 days. yay.
but couldn't start on return of the king before I had to return the books to the SFL. even though I think I had the time / could have finished it (except for the appendices though).
(yeah the last books I borrowed from the school library were tolkien)
maybe cos it really isn't a very good idea to cram the first 2 books in 4 days. especially since how they're very dense and stuff (well to me at least). what's the word for it. rich? dunno. a lot of details. overwhelming (maybe?). I have no idea.
and also maybe cos I've read it so many times that I kinda know what's going to happen anyway. and was so tempted to skip / skim the entire of book 4 (i.e. the second half of the two towers) since it's bloody boring. but I didn't!
*reminds self that middle-earth doesn't really exist in the real world so stop trying to escape there or sth. you're stuck in singapore damnit.
ok rant over.
and speaking of books and stuff I am damn irritated that the movie based on one of john le carré's books (which I actually have read and liked quite a lot) is only being released in singapore in FEBRUARY NEXT YEAR. when it was like released in the UK in september and in the US a few days back (which is why I've read all the reviews on the relevant news sites already). and it's 86% on rotten tomatoes so it can't be bad.
although I think the movie doesn't do the plot justice since they compressed everything into 2 hours but whatever.
and also want to watch the muppets (97% on rotten tomatoes o.o).
eh wait it just got released in singapore. how interesting. I was somehow under the impression that it was only coming out in january. but whatever.
ok I think I shall go watch it tomorrow with bessie.
yay found something to do.
ok I think this post is long enough.
and it's still vaguely school-related so I shall tag it as such. yay.
13 December 2011
4 December 2011
427 / the shadow of the past
re-reading tolkien again.
for I think the 4th or 5th time this year. lol.
4H gathering today.
which in my opinion didn't go very well.
maybe cos welras decided yesterday afternoon to meet up today. and then outsourced everything to me ._. so I didn't quite have the time to round everyone up and stuff.
so unsurprisingly only about a third of the class showed up. blah welras this is all your fault.
but then again I dunno at the same time it was rather disappointing not only because turnout was crappy but also maybe cos things weren't how I expected them to be anymore.
well fine more than that I think. more like there was something missing from today. spirit? I have no idea.
like I dunno everyone has changed way too much over the past 2 years andmaybe they no longer are what they were like in sec4 when we left RI.
so perhaps I shouldn't have gone there expecting things to be as they were 2 years back.
and maybe with time I tend to forget all the bad stuff about people and only remember good / better things so like when everyone does actually meet up again and you realise that your impression of them / the way you remembered them no longer holds well things will definitely disappoint. blah.
so maybe I should stop complaining about my current class as well. and stop reminiscing about (romanticising?) stuff that has long gone and that will never ever happen again. no matter how hard we try.
people change too much with time.
and inevitably grow apart from each other.
we can't get things back the way they used to be anyway.
so really why dig stuff up and spoil things. hmm.
blah ok should stop emoing. and I realised I was very incoherent above.
and fine things aren't that bad lah some people are still the same as they used to be and still quite fun. but then I've (inevitably) grown distant with some others.
but I think class spirit is definitely gone. or at least things feel different now.
sigh.
and hm I think I'm gonna stop blogging once march 2012 comes around.
not like there's going to be anything very interesting happening after that lol.
wonder if I'll hit 500 posts by then.
and then may or may not continue in 2014 when I ORD.
hm.
for I think the 4th or 5th time this year. lol.
4H gathering today.
which in my opinion didn't go very well.
maybe cos welras decided yesterday afternoon to meet up today. and then outsourced everything to me ._. so I didn't quite have the time to round everyone up and stuff.
so unsurprisingly only about a third of the class showed up. blah welras this is all your fault.
but then again I dunno at the same time it was rather disappointing not only because turnout was crappy but also maybe cos things weren't how I expected them to be anymore.
well fine more than that I think. more like there was something missing from today. spirit? I have no idea.
like I dunno everyone has changed way too much over the past 2 years and
so perhaps I shouldn't have gone there expecting things to be as they were 2 years back.
and maybe with time I tend to forget all the bad stuff about people and only remember good / better things so like when everyone does actually meet up again and you realise that your impression of them / the way you remembered them no longer holds well things will definitely disappoint. blah.
so maybe I should stop complaining about my current class as well. and stop reminiscing about (romanticising?) stuff that has long gone and that will never ever happen again. no matter how hard we try.
people change too much with time.
and inevitably grow apart from each other.
we can't get things back the way they used to be anyway.
so really why dig stuff up and spoil things. hmm.
blah ok should stop emoing. and I realised I was very incoherent above.
and fine things aren't that bad lah some people are still the same as they used to be and still quite fun. but then I've (inevitably) grown distant with some others.
but I think class spirit is definitely gone. or at least things feel different now.
sigh.
and hm I think I'm gonna stop blogging once march 2012 comes around.
not like there's going to be anything very interesting happening after that lol.
wonder if I'll hit 500 posts by then.
and then may or may not continue in 2014 when I ORD.
hm.
30 November 2011
426 / and if I never see you again
so it ended yesterday lol.
chem paper 1 didn't go very well. blah.
maybe cos I wasn't thinking much. or not reading questions properly. as usual.
but who cares everything's done!
doesn't quite feel like it though. maybe cos I've started slacking once GP / physical geog were over. lol.
yeah seriously spreading out papers over 4 weeks is quite irritating.
went for class dinner after chem. spent close to like 3hrs sitting in LJ and talking lol.
pity it was with the wrong class.
ahem.
anyway just realised when leaving school after chem / going home from dinner that well after yesterday and apart from one day in march next year it's very likely that there're going to be people whom I may never meet again for the rest of my life. what with NS and people heading off all over the world for uni - and since I really doubt there'll be a 2Q reunion (or for that matter a complete 4H reunion) to speak of in the future anyway. also there's no such thing as a S06 RA get-together right. lol. so odds are that well apart from the occasional fb status update here and there I won't really see some people anymore.
which is quite a scary thought.
but inevitable I guess.
but then one never really knows who you might bump into many many years down the road.
hopefully people still remember me though XD.
ok well now that As are over nothing much left to do I guess.
but wait.
seems like I keep spending my life waiting for things - application results, A level results, enlistment, ORD, uni - that just underwhelm when they actually do happen.
maybe I'm doing something wrong here. I don't know.
all this anticipation is really overrated.
and if you go read a few posts down about me talking about prelim results... well.
ahem.
ok I guess this is long enough and I'm running out of things to say anyway. blah.
so really all of you whom I've met in these 6 years in RI/RJ and who happen to chance upon this - well it's been nice knowing you. even if we don't see each other ever again (apart from march next year and then you never know since there are what 1200-odd people in the hall anyway so we might not even bump into each other then) hopefully you'll still remember me. lol.
but then again I think something we all fear is irrelevance - of being forgotten and cast aside / left behind - as the rest of the world goes on without us.
and the world's a pretty large place anyway. so how do we matter eh. thus I don't know if that kinda diminishes whatever I've said above. but I guess it's true I hope I've been able to at least leave people with something.
I don't know.
chem paper 1 didn't go very well. blah.
maybe cos I wasn't thinking much. or not reading questions properly. as usual.
but who cares everything's done!
doesn't quite feel like it though. maybe cos I've started slacking once GP / physical geog were over. lol.
yeah seriously spreading out papers over 4 weeks is quite irritating.
went for class dinner after chem. spent close to like 3hrs sitting in LJ and talking lol.
pity it was with the wrong class.
ahem.
anyway just realised when leaving school after chem / going home from dinner that well after yesterday and apart from one day in march next year it's very likely that there're going to be people whom I may never meet again for the rest of my life. what with NS and people heading off all over the world for uni - and since I really doubt there'll be a 2Q reunion (or for that matter a complete 4H reunion) to speak of in the future anyway. also there's no such thing as a S06 RA get-together right. lol. so odds are that well apart from the occasional fb status update here and there I won't really see some people anymore.
which is quite a scary thought.
but inevitable I guess.
but then one never really knows who you might bump into many many years down the road.
hopefully people still remember me though XD.
ok well now that As are over nothing much left to do I guess.
but wait.
seems like I keep spending my life waiting for things - application results, A level results, enlistment, ORD, uni - that just underwhelm when they actually do happen.
maybe I'm doing something wrong here. I don't know.
all this anticipation is really overrated.
and if you go read a few posts down about me talking about prelim results... well.
ahem.
ok I guess this is long enough and I'm running out of things to say anyway. blah.
so really all of you whom I've met in these 6 years in RI/RJ and who happen to chance upon this - well it's been nice knowing you. even if we don't see each other ever again (apart from march next year and then you never know since there are what 1200-odd people in the hall anyway so we might not even bump into each other then) hopefully you'll still remember me. lol.
but then again I think something we all fear is irrelevance - of being forgotten and cast aside / left behind - as the rest of the world goes on without us.
and the world's a pretty large place anyway. so how do we matter eh. thus I don't know if that kinda diminishes whatever I've said above. but I guess it's true I hope I've been able to at least leave people with something.
I don't know.
27 November 2011
425
42 more hours.
really really really bored today. and yesterday. and the day before that.
so maybe that's why I'm blogging again.
spent the past few days reading very many articles off longform.org. which is actually a rather fun site. it's like a tumblr for feature articles and stuff. but rather US-centric though.
just that my eyes get tired after reading for very long. and it's rather irritating to scroll back 30-odd pages to get to the page where I last stopped.
no idea what to do now.
can really taste the freedom just waiting for me but then again I don't even know what I'm going to do with the next 3 months free.
really need to find something to do with my life.
lawrence suggests learning / taking up something. but knowing me I'll give up less than halfway in.
I'm too lazy already.
maybe I should get back to playing emerald on vba. but thing is the previous game that I started got wiped when my com died in october so don't really feel like starting all over again lol.
listening to dire straits on youtube again.
can't decide if that or journey's better lol.
speaking of being lazy I know I should stop using it as an excuse to not do things. and really put myself to doing actual work for once. but. I'm too lazy. XD
and I have this feeling being lazy is nature's way of levelling the playing field lor.
...
who am I kidding really.
oh just realised I haven't checked cracked.com today.
and I realised in like 2 days time I can't really tag all my posts as school anymore. XD
really really really bored today. and yesterday. and the day before that.
so maybe that's why I'm blogging again.
spent the past few days reading very many articles off longform.org. which is actually a rather fun site. it's like a tumblr for feature articles and stuff. but rather US-centric though.
just that my eyes get tired after reading for very long. and it's rather irritating to scroll back 30-odd pages to get to the page where I last stopped.
no idea what to do now.
can really taste the freedom just waiting for me but then again I don't even know what I'm going to do with the next 3 months free.
really need to find something to do with my life.
lawrence suggests learning / taking up something. but knowing me I'll give up less than halfway in.
I'm too lazy already.
maybe I should get back to playing emerald on vba. but thing is the previous game that I started got wiped when my com died in october so don't really feel like starting all over again lol.
listening to dire straits on youtube again.
can't decide if that or journey's better lol.
speaking of being lazy I know I should stop using it as an excuse to not do things. and really put myself to doing actual work for once. but. I'm too lazy. XD
and I have this feeling being lazy is nature's way of levelling the playing field lor.
...
who am I kidding really.
oh just realised I haven't checked cracked.com today.
and I realised in like 2 days time I can't really tag all my posts as school anymore. XD
25 November 2011
424
and it's over!
well almost. no more writing at least. lol.
and I can so taste the freedom ahead.
well fine actually I was so slacking ever since last week. oops.
like only started mugging for human geog at like what 5pm last night. lol. but whatever it's over! and hopefully I did myself justice on the paper.
wasn't quite satisfied with my answers though. but then again I hardly ever am. so whatever.
can't believe that like 11 papers are gone and there're just 2 left. wonder how I even made it through these 3 weeks lol.
and seriously the papers are way too spread out. but whatever.
no idea what I'm gonna do post-As though.
hm.
I feel sleepy.
well almost. no more writing at least. lol.
and I can so taste the freedom ahead.
well fine actually I was so slacking ever since last week. oops.
like only started mugging for human geog at like what 5pm last night. lol. but whatever it's over! and hopefully I did myself justice on the paper.
wasn't quite satisfied with my answers though. but then again I hardly ever am. so whatever.
can't believe that like 11 papers are gone and there're just 2 left. wonder how I even made it through these 3 weeks lol.
and seriously the papers are way too spread out. but whatever.
no idea what I'm gonna do post-As though.
hm.
I feel sleepy.
13 November 2011
423
no more math for the next 2 years!
8 more papers left.
math was kinda fun actually.
and somehow my paper 1 went a lot better than paper 2.
maybe cos I was kinda falling asleep while trying to do p2. and the questions were rather irritating so somehow felt like giving up halfway. which was weird.
so I ended up sketching the same graph 4 times cos I kept messing up the sketch. and then did integration 4 times as well since my algebra kept failing and I kept losing track of my - signs. so yeah took about 1h30 for pure math in paper 2 ._.
(well at least in the end I think I did get everything correct there. I hope.)
but messed up q12 due to misreading and not really thinking properly. maybe cos I so wanted the paper to end.
slacked the whole of yesterday. oops.
and I'm going for camp tomorrow. like before physics. oh dear.
ok time to memorise stupid definitions. and hope the paper's as easy as our prelims lol.
8 more papers left.
math was kinda fun actually.
and somehow my paper 1 went a lot better than paper 2.
maybe cos I was kinda falling asleep while trying to do p2. and the questions were rather irritating so somehow felt like giving up halfway. which was weird.
so I ended up sketching the same graph 4 times cos I kept messing up the sketch. and then did integration 4 times as well since my algebra kept failing and I kept losing track of my - signs. so yeah took about 1h30 for pure math in paper 2 ._.
(well at least in the end I think I did get everything correct there. I hope.)
but messed up q12 due to misreading and not really thinking properly. maybe cos I so wanted the paper to end.
slacked the whole of yesterday. oops.
and I'm going for camp tomorrow. like before physics. oh dear.
ok time to memorise stupid definitions. and hope the paper's as easy as our prelims lol.
9 November 2011
422
two more gone, ten left.
GP was a complete disaster.
didn't know what I was writing for my essay.
hopefully the bell curve saves me - but then seeing how AQ and summary were very straightforward I wonder what'll happen.
and interestingly the more math I do the worse I get.
blah. back to vectors.
GP was a complete disaster.
didn't know what I was writing for my essay.
hopefully the bell curve saves me - but then seeing how AQ and summary were very straightforward I wonder what'll happen.
and interestingly the more math I do the worse I get.
blah. back to vectors.
8 November 2011
421/the beginning of the end
one down; twelve more to go.
and I only started mugging yesterday!
but I realised my exam timetable is very nice I don't have any days with double papers (except GP of course).
maybe that's why I've been slacking so much.
but then again chem today wasn't half bad - and was actually rather fun.
like the tough / irritating questions were more than balanced out by the very very easy ones. lol.
so yeah maybe I shouldn't have worried so much.
now for GP tomorrow. and I think I'm falling sick. bleh. and I realised I haven't done any GP since august.
hopefully the questions are nice to me tomorrow.
everyone's telling me not to worry for GP, that I'll do fine etc. - maybe I will. and everyone was telling me to not worry for chem either XD
and I don't really feel like cramming trivia now. blah. and you can't really mug for GP I guess. just go in calm enough and things should work out fine.
yeah but the problem is going in with a calm mind / clear head. lol. especially since I think I'm falling sick. blah why does this keep happening with every major exam this year lol.
sigh most probably gonna sleep in 30 min or something.
but hmm chem marks really the beginning of the end of JC / school life in general. part of me still can't quite fathom that I've already gotten to this stage - that now everything's over and all that's left is this final final final stretch - that our education system's supposed to have led us to. (well of course it isn't the be all and end all of everything but it's still important ENOUGH. although less important than prelims imo lol). and even kevin sim has taken to scaring me about my A level grades since I've been slacking so much ._.
but really quite surprised that after all these 6 years in RI/RJ I'm finally here - at the end. and so not quite ready for what comes next.
oh dear.
but well one down 12 more to go.
and I only started mugging yesterday!
but I realised my exam timetable is very nice I don't have any days with double papers (except GP of course).
maybe that's why I've been slacking so much.
but then again chem today wasn't half bad - and was actually rather fun.
like the tough / irritating questions were more than balanced out by the very very easy ones. lol.
so yeah maybe I shouldn't have worried so much.
now for GP tomorrow. and I think I'm falling sick. bleh. and I realised I haven't done any GP since august.
hopefully the questions are nice to me tomorrow.
everyone's telling me not to worry for GP, that I'll do fine etc. - maybe I will. and everyone was telling me to not worry for chem either XD
and I don't really feel like cramming trivia now. blah. and you can't really mug for GP I guess. just go in calm enough and things should work out fine.
yeah but the problem is going in with a calm mind / clear head. lol. especially since I think I'm falling sick. blah why does this keep happening with every major exam this year lol.
sigh most probably gonna sleep in 30 min or something.
but hmm chem marks really the beginning of the end of JC / school life in general. part of me still can't quite fathom that I've already gotten to this stage - that now everything's over and all that's left is this final final final stretch - that our education system's supposed to have led us to. (well of course it isn't the be all and end all of everything but it's still important ENOUGH. although less important than prelims imo lol). and even kevin sim has taken to scaring me about my A level grades since I've been slacking so much ._.
but really quite surprised that after all these 6 years in RI/RJ I'm finally here - at the end. and so not quite ready for what comes next.
oh dear.
but well one down 12 more to go.
21 October 2011
420
hmm haven't posted in very long.
and I realise I've got nothing to do tonight / tomorrow / sunday / monday / tuesday / wednesday.
so maybe that's why I'mwriting blogging now.
hmm so what happened - "farewell" assembly was exactly a week ago. real lessons ended what a week before that.
and before we know it we're hurtling towards As and NS and the other 3/4ths of our lives already. as astee pointed out in the last chem lecture.
and I'm still feeling totally unprepared / not ready to face up to these things.
and still can't quite believe that like my time in our education system is almost over.
time passes too quickly - can still remember my first day in RI. and in RJ. (can't quite remember most of the lessons in sec1 / j1 though). and really I still haven't wrapped my mind around the fact that it's been 6 years already.
doesn't quite seem/feel like it. and it still hasn't really sunk in yet.
oh well. enough of boring stuff already. and I suspect I'm becoming rather incoherent. which is why I'm so not a writer just a mere blogger.
and speaking of writing my admissions essays are proving to be rather disastrous.
somehow I can't seem to write those deep / insightful / multi-layered (?) essays that everyone else has been churning out. but then again it's not like I particularly enjoy reading them. especially since after the 10th one or so they all seem all too similar already. and I usually end up giving up after the 2nd paragraph or so when reading them. or I need to re-read the things twice or thrice since they all get pretty boring and very dense as things move along. but then again I'm not a very good writer and as ks puts it I have no literary skill whatsoever.
and I so agree since I only read plot-driven novels and nothing much else.
oops.
but yeah somehow I find myself rather unable to write anything vaguely resembling these things - perhaps I'm too obtuse / direct / whatever. I'm guessing the problem with me is that I tend to see things as they are and nothing much more (maybe that's why I could never get lit) - which is proving to be very irritating right now when I'm supposed to write essays with personal voice and whathaveyou. and I have no idea how to get this bloody thing across. thus I really wonder if I can get anything out by the 1st. of january next year.
or I might as well go NUS. or somewhere in the UK where they don't really care so much about your essays. blah. I'm too lazy already.
anyway apart from that nothing much else - school's incredibly boring nowadays. and my timetable has been extremely empty as well. mainly cos I can't be bothered to start on revision. and I've been skipping all the mock papers I've signed up for. oops.
but on the brighter side of things I've been eating a lot / going all over the place for lunch and sometimes dinner these few weeks. lol. and I've all but given up on clearing NAPFA anyway. and speaking of NS they still haven't given me a PES status yet even though my PES D only lasts until 4/10. and I went for the medical checkup on the 11th (and did you know MINDEF pays 300 bucks for every single scan they have us undergo thanks to the wonky ECG machine in CMPB) and wasted 3 hours or so. and they didn't find anything wrong (as expected). but thanks to government efficiency I'm guessing CMPB still doesn't know anything so if this keeps up I get to go in in march. and if I feel like clearing NAPFA next year I can enter in may. lol.
but also on the 11th I think I went to yishun for the first time in my life. didn't quite like the place though. but the weather was nice.
anyway I should really start mugging soon. but then again there's always the power of the bell curve plus there are no numbers on your result slip for As anyway. or notice board outside the SAC.
lol.
ok I think this post is of a sufficient enough length.
and I'm getting bored ofwriting typing as well. hm.
and I realise I've got nothing to do tonight / tomorrow / sunday / monday / tuesday / wednesday.
so maybe that's why I'm
hmm so what happened - "farewell" assembly was exactly a week ago. real lessons ended what a week before that.
and before we know it we're hurtling towards As and NS and the other 3/4ths of our lives already. as astee pointed out in the last chem lecture.
and I'm still feeling totally unprepared / not ready to face up to these things.
and still can't quite believe that like my time in our education system is almost over.
time passes too quickly - can still remember my first day in RI. and in RJ. (can't quite remember most of the lessons in sec1 / j1 though). and really I still haven't wrapped my mind around the fact that it's been 6 years already.
doesn't quite seem/feel like it. and it still hasn't really sunk in yet.
oh well. enough of boring stuff already. and I suspect I'm becoming rather incoherent. which is why I'm so not a writer just a mere blogger.
and speaking of writing my admissions essays are proving to be rather disastrous.
somehow I can't seem to write those deep / insightful / multi-layered (?) essays that everyone else has been churning out. but then again it's not like I particularly enjoy reading them. especially since after the 10th one or so they all seem all too similar already. and I usually end up giving up after the 2nd paragraph or so when reading them. or I need to re-read the things twice or thrice since they all get pretty boring and very dense as things move along. but then again I'm not a very good writer and as ks puts it I have no literary skill whatsoever.
and I so agree since I only read plot-driven novels and nothing much else.
oops.
but yeah somehow I find myself rather unable to write anything vaguely resembling these things - perhaps I'm too obtuse / direct / whatever. I'm guessing the problem with me is that I tend to see things as they are and nothing much more (maybe that's why I could never get lit) - which is proving to be very irritating right now when I'm supposed to write essays with personal voice and whathaveyou. and I have no idea how to get this bloody thing across. thus I really wonder if I can get anything out by the 1st. of january next year.
or I might as well go NUS. or somewhere in the UK where they don't really care so much about your essays. blah. I'm too lazy already.
anyway apart from that nothing much else - school's incredibly boring nowadays. and my timetable has been extremely empty as well. mainly cos I can't be bothered to start on revision. and I've been skipping all the mock papers I've signed up for. oops.
but on the brighter side of things I've been eating a lot / going all over the place for lunch and sometimes dinner these few weeks. lol. and I've all but given up on clearing NAPFA anyway. and speaking of NS they still haven't given me a PES status yet even though my PES D only lasts until 4/10. and I went for the medical checkup on the 11th (and did you know MINDEF pays 300 bucks for every single scan they have us undergo thanks to the wonky ECG machine in CMPB) and wasted 3 hours or so. and they didn't find anything wrong (as expected). but thanks to government efficiency I'm guessing CMPB still doesn't know anything so if this keeps up I get to go in in march. and if I feel like clearing NAPFA next year I can enter in may. lol.
but also on the 11th I think I went to yishun for the first time in my life. didn't quite like the place though. but the weather was nice.
anyway I should really start mugging soon. but then again there's always the power of the bell curve plus there are no numbers on your result slip for As anyway. or notice board outside the SAC.
lol.
ok I think this post is of a sufficient enough length.
and I'm getting bored of
1 October 2011
419
I'm dying of boredom here.
maybe that's why I'm posting. lol.
tuesday - woke up at 11am. then went to NUS for a boring talk. blah.
wednesday - went to school! for what I also dunno. so slacked in the library for quite a bit. then got summoned by KS ._. but was quite interesting listening to him interrogate gxz again.
thursday - woke up at 11am yet again. stayed home and did nothing the whole day.
friday - went to school again for no reason. so loitered around and got laughed at by mr lu who insinuated that I messed up geog or something. blah. then went to plan november camp so at least thankfully most of the acts are up by now.
today - woke up at 11am again ._.
ate breakfast and then had lunch 2 hours later. and now I'm wondering what to do again (maybe that's why I'm blogging now).
and given what happened on friday I so don't want to go to school on monday / don't want next week to start. blah.
hence it's quite ironic that I'm dying of boredom right now.
oh yay it looks like it's going to rain.
hmm what else - now I wonder what I should be doing right now.
I guess I could continue with emerald. hmm. but played it once through already last year so now things are getting a bit boring.
ah yes there's always cracked.com
maybe that's why I'm posting. lol.
tuesday - woke up at 11am. then went to NUS for a boring talk. blah.
wednesday - went to school! for what I also dunno. so slacked in the library for quite a bit. then got summoned by KS ._. but was quite interesting listening to him interrogate gxz again.
thursday - woke up at 11am yet again. stayed home and did nothing the whole day.
friday - went to school again for no reason. so loitered around and got laughed at by mr lu who insinuated that I messed up geog or something. blah. then went to plan november camp so at least thankfully most of the acts are up by now.
today - woke up at 11am again ._.
ate breakfast and then had lunch 2 hours later. and now I'm wondering what to do again (maybe that's why I'm blogging now).
and given what happened on friday I so don't want to go to school on monday / don't want next week to start. blah.
hence it's quite ironic that I'm dying of boredom right now.
oh yay it looks like it's going to rain.
hmm what else - now I wonder what I should be doing right now.
I guess I could continue with emerald. hmm. but played it once through already last year so now things are getting a bit boring.
ah yes there's always cracked.com
26 September 2011
418
lessons learnt from chem p1 today:
1. read question carefully.
2. don't be lazy and eyepower the options
3. read question very carefully.
4. never ever underestimate my stupidity.
5. if you spot a trick and tell yourself to watch out for it most likely you'll still get tricked anyway ._.
basically somehow I managed to misread q38 (which of the following reaction schemes will give the following ester) as which of these reactions will give AN ester. and somehow I didn't even see the desired ester below and only managed to see the options. hmm.
then another question arranging from most to least basic (i.e. they asked for decreasing Kb) I ordered them by least to most basic and then forgot to reverse the order. blah.
also screwed an electrochem question by just assuming stuff and being lazy to do calculations and check the other options.
and got tricked by NaBH4 and ketones again (that question I have no idea what I was doing. oh dear.)
but whatever prelims are finally over. so like one month of freedom for now. yay.
just that I have the whole week off school and I have no idea what I'm going to do. so I'm just lying around at home reading stuff now. and I'm bored already even though chem ended at 915 and I got home at 12-ish.
sigh.
and papers coming back next monday. oh dear.
got a bad feeling for phys geog GP again.
zzz.
ok we'll see how things go.
now what to do for the next 8 hours before I sleep ._.
1. read question carefully.
2. don't be lazy and eyepower the options
3. read question very carefully.
4. never ever underestimate my stupidity.
5. if you spot a trick and tell yourself to watch out for it most likely you'll still get tricked anyway ._.
basically somehow I managed to misread q38 (which of the following reaction schemes will give the following ester) as which of these reactions will give AN ester. and somehow I didn't even see the desired ester below and only managed to see the options. hmm.
then another question arranging from most to least basic (i.e. they asked for decreasing Kb) I ordered them by least to most basic and then forgot to reverse the order. blah.
also screwed an electrochem question by just assuming stuff and being lazy to do calculations and check the other options.
and got tricked by NaBH4 and ketones again (that question I have no idea what I was doing. oh dear.)
but whatever prelims are finally over. so like one month of freedom for now. yay.
just that I have the whole week off school and I have no idea what I'm going to do. so I'm just lying around at home reading stuff now. and I'm bored already even though chem ended at 915 and I got home at 12-ish.
sigh.
and papers coming back next monday. oh dear.
got a bad feeling for phys geog GP again.
zzz.
ok we'll see how things go.
now what to do for the next 8 hours before I sleep ._.
22 September 2011
417
hmm I'm posting again!
although I don't quite know what I'm going to write about. just bored and with nothing to do I guess.
and it's a bit too early to be sleeping.
and I so don't feel like mugging for physics MCQ.
anyway I messed up papers 2 and 3 so no point aiming for dean's anyway so who cares. should be a safe enough A either way.
hmm chem p2 was rather fun. just that I messed up my alpha helix again. blah.
pharm chem was ow. ran out of time cos I wasted too much time reading / picking questions. so missed one mechanism and 1 NMR elucidation. but the paper was kinda fun (especially wty's question which just looked scary but was actually quite doable. unlike some others which looked horrible and were also icky). so I skipped the bio / essay question on drugs which was actually the one that would take the least time (ironically enough) so didn't manage to finish at the end.
and I had a lot of fun sorting through my scripts since they were all in a mess and I didn't number the questions very properly so I held everyone up and eventually astee just gave up and skipped me. oops.
anyways have been spending the past 2 days in the library reading! so finished the first 4 books of the h2g2 trilogy. and spent a lot of time loitering around school as well. it's so funny to see all the j2s being replaced by yr5s mugging. and they're so much more hardworking than us ._. like the library was damn crowded today even though promos for them are like still relatively far away.
ok whatever.
bored.
sec3s are damn irritating still and keep ignoring me / whatever I tell them.
meh.
but whatever I'll be gone very very very soon. it's been a long 2 years already.
tired.
although I don't quite know what I'm going to write about. just bored and with nothing to do I guess.
and it's a bit too early to be sleeping.
and I so don't feel like mugging for physics MCQ.
anyway I messed up papers 2 and 3 so no point aiming for dean's anyway so who cares. should be a safe enough A either way.
hmm chem p2 was rather fun. just that I messed up my alpha helix again. blah.
pharm chem was ow. ran out of time cos I wasted too much time reading / picking questions. so missed one mechanism and 1 NMR elucidation. but the paper was kinda fun (especially wty's question which just looked scary but was actually quite doable. unlike some others which looked horrible and were also icky). so I skipped the bio / essay question on drugs which was actually the one that would take the least time (ironically enough) so didn't manage to finish at the end.
and I had a lot of fun sorting through my scripts since they were all in a mess and I didn't number the questions very properly so I held everyone up and eventually astee just gave up and skipped me. oops.
anyways have been spending the past 2 days in the library reading! so finished the first 4 books of the h2g2 trilogy. and spent a lot of time loitering around school as well. it's so funny to see all the j2s being replaced by yr5s mugging. and they're so much more hardworking than us ._. like the library was damn crowded today even though promos for them are like still relatively far away.
ok whatever.
bored.
sec3s are damn irritating still and keep ignoring me / whatever I tell them.
meh.
but whatever I'll be gone very very very soon. it's been a long 2 years already.
tired.
17 September 2011
416
yeah I'm finally updating.
don't know why though. maybe cos I'm really bored.
also since all the major papers are over already.
can't believe I actually got through the last 2 weeks heh.
mugging / cramming 2 years' worth of work (I can't believe how much math I forgot already ._.) + random visits to kevin sim during the hols (it's fun listening to people talk lol) + POC prep and everything.
and then this week's papers were also rather crappy - physics dropped 12 marks (in a 72 mark paper) due to stupidity and stuff. then chem -7 for forgetting that H2/Ni and NaBH4 can whack carbonyls. and -3 for stupidity. and -2 for unit conversion errors again. blah.
then human geog picked both essays wrongly so kinda ran out of things to write again.
math I was ok (thankfully). just that I didn't bother with the shangyi question.
then friday - 6 hours in ISH. math II was fun! and geog I don't think I did myself justice on the DRQs since I forgot most of my key words. but then I realised I'm very bad at memorising things so whatever. and my essays weren't very long either. so I had 10 min left at the end of the paper (and for geog every minute counts). So I asked for a world map! yay. cheng was so shocked / confused when I did. hmm.
also my pencilbox is too messy already. should clear some things out of it.
blah so not expecting much from prelims. last year's results were anomalous really. so yeah everything should be easy As but percentile-wise - not expecting much. and there's always GP. blah.
anyway then after everything on friday it was POC.
2nd one that I actually attended (I skipped most of my own ceremony in '09 since it clashed with german prelims).
can't believe that 2 years have passed so quickly already.
and I don't know I'm not one who says much or says things very well so I don't think I'll be able to encapsulate everything I'm feeling right now / yesterday in words.
yeah but essentially thanks guys for everything you've done and I'm glad everything went well.
(as in everything these 2 years; the ceremony yesterday was fail. blah. should have stepped in sooner / more)
so I can't quite wrap my mind around the fact that another batch has gone / taken over and that 2 years have passed already. also that in a sense not only is 59 leaving but I am as well - so really it was also somewhat my own POC all over again. so like all these hours I've put in over these 2 years - all the late nights, the meetings on weekends, the wasted opportunities elsewhere, all the emailing when I should have been doing work / mugging - it's all over now.
and I don't know what to say about it. (to paraphrase TPL)
not sure whether I'm relieved / content / happy / sad / just tired / all of these and some more. don't know if all this was worth it in the end. or whether it even meant anything at all. or maybe I still haven't gotten past the realisation that everything's over / ending already. including my life in RI / RJ.
maybe that's why I didn't say much yesterday.
ah well it'll hit eventually.
but right now I'm just in some sort of limbo - tying up loose ends / getting things ready for next year - when I won't even be there since I'll most likely be stuck in tekong from december on - and just going through life not knowing what will happen after As.
so ultimately what does everything this 6 years add up to - I don't know.
don't know why though. maybe cos I'm really bored.
also since all the major papers are over already.
can't believe I actually got through the last 2 weeks heh.
mugging / cramming 2 years' worth of work (I can't believe how much math I forgot already ._.) + random visits to kevin sim during the hols (it's fun listening to people talk lol) + POC prep and everything.
and then this week's papers were also rather crappy - physics dropped 12 marks (in a 72 mark paper) due to stupidity and stuff. then chem -7 for forgetting that H2/Ni and NaBH4 can whack carbonyls. and -3 for stupidity. and -2 for unit conversion errors again. blah.
then human geog picked both essays wrongly so kinda ran out of things to write again.
math I was ok (thankfully). just that I didn't bother with the shangyi question.
then friday - 6 hours in ISH. math II was fun! and geog I don't think I did myself justice on the DRQs since I forgot most of my key words. but then I realised I'm very bad at memorising things so whatever. and my essays weren't very long either. so I had 10 min left at the end of the paper (and for geog every minute counts). So I asked for a world map! yay. cheng was so shocked / confused when I did. hmm.
also my pencilbox is too messy already. should clear some things out of it.
blah so not expecting much from prelims. last year's results were anomalous really. so yeah everything should be easy As but percentile-wise - not expecting much. and there's always GP. blah.
anyway then after everything on friday it was POC.
2nd one that I actually attended (I skipped most of my own ceremony in '09 since it clashed with german prelims).
can't believe that 2 years have passed so quickly already.
and I don't know I'm not one who says much or says things very well so I don't think I'll be able to encapsulate everything I'm feeling right now / yesterday in words.
yeah but essentially thanks guys for everything you've done and I'm glad everything went well.
(as in everything these 2 years; the ceremony yesterday was fail. blah. should have stepped in sooner / more)
so I can't quite wrap my mind around the fact that another batch has gone / taken over and that 2 years have passed already. also that in a sense not only is 59 leaving but I am as well - so really it was also somewhat my own POC all over again. so like all these hours I've put in over these 2 years - all the late nights, the meetings on weekends, the wasted opportunities elsewhere, all the emailing when I should have been doing work / mugging - it's all over now.
and I don't know what to say about it. (to paraphrase TPL)
not sure whether I'm relieved / content / happy / sad / just tired / all of these and some more. don't know if all this was worth it in the end. or whether it even meant anything at all. or maybe I still haven't gotten past the realisation that everything's over / ending already. including my life in RI / RJ.
maybe that's why I didn't say much yesterday.
ah well it'll hit eventually.
but right now I'm just in some sort of limbo - tying up loose ends / getting things ready for next year - when I won't even be there since I'll most likely be stuck in tekong from december on - and just going through life not knowing what will happen after As.
so ultimately what does everything this 6 years add up to - I don't know.
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